Changes

I have to say, that in general I like changes. Good ones at least. But, even good changes can be hard. For example, I love the changes that are happening in my life. I love getting closer to Jordan and the fact that we are fixing to be one. But, I don't love the fact that with that change comes, more changes. Like I won't be here when little every day things happen in my siblings lives. There won't be the long nights of giggling and talking about the silliest things with Amy. There won't be the "Pow wows" with Joshua and Nathan and Amy where we just talk. I won't be here when Mom is in one of her hilarious moods. I won't be here when Dad says the funniest things. David and Joseph will experience things that, yes, I will hear about, but I won't be here. Now, I realize that I'm not moving that far away, but it won't be the same. I also realize that I can come back whenever I want. :) But, I won't have the same closeness that I have now. And, just to clarify, I am extremely excited to be Jordan's wife and start our own family! I'm not sad by that at all. I will miss being in my family's home though. The hardest will be the long nights with Amy. She has been such a blessing to me. I so often take her for granted. I'm so so thankful for her though. Whenever anything is wrong, Am is the first to hear about it. She has such a calming effect on me. I plan on having her over lots!! :) In fact, I plan on each of my siblings coming over lots! Just saying. I'm glad for this change in my life, but like I said even good changes can be hard.
Lovin' my life.
~me